The problem with having a love for science and theoretical thought on life and exisitence is that has you questioning the threads of reality. Many people don't do this to the level that I do. Many people have trouble figuring out with what they are doing with their day (me included) that it doesn't really bother/worry them. I was taking a dump and I have a book on time next to the john. I started to thumb through the table of contents and the subject matter seemed intriguing enough, but I got worried about how it was going to make me feel. I start to get disconnected, or wrapped up in what I learn. It would suck to have my normal worries on top of having less respect for our social understanding of time.

long time no talky

What do you do when you have such an intense long distance, paranormal relationship with someone when they finally call and have time to talk? What do you talk about? Where do you start? Do you go on about yourself or do you fish for things that you wanna hear about? What do you even want to hear about?

Can you just share some silence together? Will this awkward phone call be the last of its type or will there be another chance to get awkward and be lost in shameful ignorance of what you think you should know about this person, or any other topic relating to that person or their life.

Update:

It has lead to another phone call. "I'm on a stroll . and.. last time I was o n a str o l l ,. we talked so I thought I'd call you again .. . byee ."

Secretly happy that I couldn't hear the message I listened to message later and tried to decipher voicemail through my broken phone. I missed the call, now what do I do?

blnkfc2me is a comforting name to blog to. my problems and curiousities associated with blogging can be kept under blnkfc2me, its like being able to have a blank audience that has a face of no one in particular, no one that I have to cater to. Hopefully this will be the outlet that I need.